Jakk!
You can use your energies in a positive or negative manner, it's entirely up to you. Enjoy life while your here, it will pass before you realized what happened. You can't change history or sometimes not the future either, but you can contribute! You appear to be above average intelligence, use that gift for creativity. You certainly don't have to follow the masses, be an innovator, the world is loaded with sheep. Above all, it is mandatory that you maintain a positive ATTITUDE. Attitude is keystone of net worth as a human being. You can't drown your problems either, it simply creates a problem of a different kind.
If you find a closed door, "go in thru the bedroom window" like Joe Cocker said. Attitude is the strength worlds are built on. Good luck FRIEND.
"Never corner something that's meaner than you are"
Everythings getting a wee bit too much for me at the moment, what with work, college and my unbelievably cruelly complex social life. Still, hopefully the christmas break thats just aroudn the corner will help break it all down a bit.